Animal Guides – The Panther –  Stars & EeeShel Trinity Essences

Animal Guides – The Panther – Stars & EeeShel Trinity Essences

I had a strange initiation into the realm of animal spirit guides that again, in hindsight, goes further back than first thought-  as always seems to be the case. There is a theme I promise! Although I will meander a little, as you do!

I had been so distraught at the loss of my little border collie cross companion Corrie, when I was 11 that my family refused point blank to have another dog – or any pet really. I tried several times to persuade them but to no avail.

When I was  around 16 there was something strange that went on and suddenly my mum arrived home and we were embracing the tiniest black kitten into our home. My mum, being a rather old school and blatantly obvious with names – called her Sooty. 

She always remained a dainty soul and I referred  to her as “my little black panther” She would often sleep on my bed and I assisted her through 2 very unexpected litters when she uncharacteristically decided that outdoors was ok so when she reached about 4 years old. Incidentally we kept one of the kittens who my mum insisted on calling “Tigger” – yes you’ve guessed it – he was a striped tabby! 

Sooty opened the flood gates 

Before too long, I managed to persuade them to let me have a dog. So for many years we had a bit of a menagerie going on, but hey I digress.  

I had never given spirit or totem animals much thought. As a participant in a spiritual development group – the weeks topic was animal guides – so off we went on a journey to meet ours. It was a very unremarkable journey and I met with a black panther – who walked slowly and deliberately towards the water’s edge between us and fixed her gaze on me. That was it, very mundane and definitely not insightful. 

Then a day or two later “it” began , the dreams, nightmares even, where I saw myself as a young antelope like creature and every time I had the dream this black panther with her staring gaze would course after me and pounce on the back of my neck, dragging me to the ground and then literally squeezing the life out of me. 

Each time the short and fast dream was exactly the same. 

Then I began having strange reactions to sounds, one I remember distinctly was when a motor bike zoomed up behind me – and as it passed me – I froze – and recoiled my neck in – shoulders up round my ears type reaction. I was physically waiting on the “bite” which was incredibly surreal. This went on for several days with me reacting to sounds, always, and only those that  originated from behind me. 

Encouraged by mentors to explore – I did and this small black panther  arrived – showing me my nightmares from her perspective – a starving mother desperate to feed her young I was easy picking and my life sacrifice allowed multiple life’s to continue and her showing up with gratitude opened a whole new world of understanding for me.

For many years she walked beside me – small , sleek – and when there was ever an instance where I had to be critically aware of my surroundings or those around me she walked purposely in front of me and sat there – alerting me and encouraging decrement . 

This continued for many years until I visited Belize and Guatemala – we visited the Mayan Temples in Lamanai, Belize, including the Jaguar Temple. Followed shortly after by a rather arduous mid-day jungle treck to the Jaguar caves in Guatemala – after being part of a Mayan protection ceremony! 

I had a bizarre experience where my trusty panther guide rose up in front of me and showed herself in a much taller and more robust form than she had ever been – winding herself around me in that way felines so , she reared up behind me and rather than pouncing – she merged with my energy completely.  It was incredibly powerful and incredibly emotional. I felt stronger than I have ever done. 

We interestingly also visited Cozumel in Mexico where we just happened to find our way to the Temple of the Moon Goddess Ixchel, also known as the Jaguar goddess.


Top Left Moon Temple of Ixchel – Other images Jaguar Temple and mask Temple at Lamanai, Belize
( Yes the rain forest DOES live up to its name!)

So to explain further – Ixchel is The Moon goddess, who worshipped the sun god and bore him the 4 star Jaguar sons of the 4 directions.  ( panthers -more subtly -and jaguars coats  actually resemble star constellations! )

I had been drawn to having a tattoo years earlier which I found out was Mayan symbology of the sun and the moon and yet this was the first time I had heard the personal connection to Ixchel . 

Coming on the back of my Jaguar experience it was hard to ignore the relationship. 

I was therefore guided to rename my vibrational essence range and Ixchel trinity became the phonetic spelling of EeeShel Trinity Essences.  If you know me you will know of my love of 3’s and the trinity often links to mind, body, spirit and also in this case the Sun, Moon and Stars!

There are have been many other synchronistic events that have arrived and many are ongoing. Which brings me back to what prompted me to write this post in the first place!

We were recently decorating our bedroom, I use the term loosely as it was literally taken back to the brick to be re-done! Anyway I was in search for a panther  painting for the walls but was drawing a blank until I saw an absolutely amazing one named “Pantheress” by Kerry Darlington not only beautiful the symbology of the merging of the protectress energy with the feminine but Kerry’s description of the art work really spoke to me and I quote ” Many cultures have been fascinated by the symbolism of black panthers. They’ve been thought to symbolize the feminine, the dark mother, the dark of the moon; Darkness, death and rebirth from it;

Seen as protector of the universe. On a Shamanic level, they are said to aid Astral Travel. I depicted the panther here as a guardian of the feminine and wanted the background to have an abstract otherworldly feel, so that it could be in space, part of a dream, or deep underwater”

As you can see this fitted my own experience with panther /Jaguar perfectly! It is rather beautiful isn’t it?

So in a round a bout way I got there! The prompt was hanging the photograph and the sharing is my personal experience with the Panther / Jaguar – it is surreal to feel her when she is around, you can feel her stealth, her purposeful gait, the ripple of every sinew in her body as she steps forward. Her exquisite examination of the surroundings, and yet her unwavering calmness. Her ability to alert me to situations, or people that I may not have picked up on – I feel truly blessed that she walks with me.

Do you have experiences of your animal guide and how has working with them altered your life?

Why Fragments of Gold

Why Fragments of Gold

As many of you know Gold is one of my “Things” my passion and what an amazing journey I have had with Gold! If you have been around for a while you probably know this but I completely get that many folks here will not know how I got to be so passionate about this amazing element. 

Gold has been on my radar since around 2000 or so – consciously that is and it’s hard to say exactly how it piqued my interest in the first place but wiggling it’s way in it definitely got my attention! 

I began having weird interactions with Gold via meditation around 2009/10 and my Egyptian interest coupled with curiosity opened up a bit of a weird one with bi – location, Mono atomic gold and ongoing insights into just what Gold could bring to me on an energetic level. 

The insights came and went as did the practice but each time I revisited the journey it gifted me something more in-depth and intriguing than the last one. 

So the notion of Fragments of Gold was in essence born around 2011 but it was little more than a self-exploration practice that was developing for me.

Now I can be a bit slow and obstinate and unless synchronicities are bountiful and kind of wave wiggle themselves in my face introducing themselves  I can dig my heels in – waiting for ” higher confirmation” that I am indeed on the right track. ( thankfully I’m getting better at listening!) 

That higher confirmation came in the rather unusual format of a musical event that was to be held in Glasgow Cathedral – this was to be held on 30th August 2014.

The event only caught my eye as it was called “Fragments of Gold”  – I hummed and hawed over whether I should go or not – bought a ticket and still couldn’t make my mind up. 

It was some classical composition composed by DJ Goldie – who was a complete unknown to me – after a Google search finding out that he is big in the Drum and Base music field which was definitely NOT my thing! 

There was that little itch at my brain that tweaking of the Golden threads that I couldn’t help notice – Fragments of Gold – Goldie with his gold capped teeth – to perform an ancient classical piece in the sacred space of Glasgow Cathedral which is a known node on the Glasgow Network of aligned sites ( ley lines and sacred sites were another of my passions!) 

Then things started to get a little weird – it took me ages to share this as it feels a bit egotistical – and yet it feels so synchronistically aligned. 

Anyway the dreams began and over a few days they played out – each time ending  in a shout out from Goldie looking to connect with a person with a specific  mix of

tattoo’s – I know crazy right ? 

Each time in the dream there would be a few people put themselves forward and each time they weren’t the right ones – he refined the criteria and voila they matched mine – I tried ignoring it but each time something or someone else in the dream would push me forward- and it would end when Goldie acknowledged me by simply saying “it’s you” 

It was, in my mind overtly egotistical and I couldn’t think for the life of me why I would even want to connect with a gold toothed – wild – drum and base guy! 

Yet the fragments of Gold kept swirling in my awareness   , I gave in and decided to go anyway – it wasn’t going to be a long event  so what was there to lose? Not to mention I might get a bit of peace from the crazy dreams! 

On the night I was still not feeling the vibe –  so kicked on a comfy pair of Jeans and a top threw an old cardi on just incase it rained – and a comfy pair of trainers as it was a bit of a hike to the cathedral. 

It was a warm night and I was a bit frazzled by the time I got there – so feeling decidedly grumpy and frumpy for better way of describing it I took a seat and watched the

carefully  arranged pendulums swish to and fro over blocks that resembled white Piano keys – a friendly sort of guy sat next to me and struck up a conversation- which to be frank bored me really quickly as it was pulling my attention from the vibe that was in the room – so polite hmm’s and occasional nodding was my mode.

Suddenly a ripple went round the room and this unrecognisable guy walked down the nearby aisle.  The guy next to me informed me “there he is” so I presumed he meant Goldie – he looked nothing like the kind of menacing photos from his acting roles that I’d seen on the internet – thankfully!

Then all of a sudden he broke into a run and bounced right over to me – gave me the mother of all bear hugs – said “you look like you need a hug “ and then bounced off into the throng of people again! 

The hug was remarkable not a superficial type one but a strong heart connected one – and definitely not the kind I would expect from a stranger – Let alone a celebrity one! 

The event was amazing and to listen to how Goldie channeled the music – getting up in the night to compose having no notion of exactly how it had arrived – just that that’s the way it happens! 

The music was filtered to perfection as the acoustics of the cathedral carried it in its fullness and it was certainly a worthwhile experience however the validations of Fragments of Gold was enough to spur me on to taking the journey to a whole new level – Gold insights often arrive in the middle of the night so capturing the fullness of this can take time and effort, but it’s literally worth its weight in Gold ! 

So this is how my signature programme came to its title of Fragments of Gold – a phenomenal experience and yet it still took time for more of the components to filter through – I offered my first “Fragments of Gold” journey back in 2019 and have been running these via short journeys regularly since then.

There is another shift in this work coming and a deepening of those Fragments of Gold and I will be announcing this soon – Autumn 2022.

I am grateful for this amazing experience that anchored that name for me without a shadow of a doubt. I am grateful for Gold and how it has shown me so much of its long forgotten amazingness and I am grateful for those who have joined me to journey with Gold and to embrace its specialness.

(event images courtesy of Historic Scotland)