Origin & Echoes

Tag: vibrational-essences

  • “Gentle Warrior” helps with a sad goodbye ~ taking my own medicine.

    I always believe there is divine timing in everything and although I can’t always see it I can feel the enormity of it working away in the background.

    I had been guided to release my essence range and to take my programme introducing “A Starlight led journey of self discovery” to the next level. I had been carefully planning what I was doing and everything was going to plan when there was a sudden urgency to just get it “out there”

    I found myself going live with my visible offer much earlier than I had planned and it almost felt that everything was being taken from my hands and divine guidance had kicked in. I needed to let go and trust the process.

    Then suddenly I was thrown a curved ball ~ within a few days of releasing all that I had been guided to, my beautiful 11 year old Border collie was suddenly taken ill. I had that nagging feeling that it wasn’t just a simple blip but I was devastated to find that she was in fact approaching her last few days and there was literally nothing that could be done.

    We were devastated, she was our beautiful girl and we certainly weren’t prepared for this.                             The next morning it was clear she was struggling more than usual and that she was in some pain and was just so tired.  I was solely responsible for making the decisions to make sure her passing was peaceful and that she didn’t suffer any more than she had to. She was “my girl” and it was always me she came to however I was struggling with my heart and my head unable to think clearly and obviously totally emotionally overwhelmed. I felt I couldn’t manage to do this! I wanted to bury my head in the sand and not have to stand and face the situation and do what needed to be done.

    I took some of my “Gentle Warrior” essence – which helps you to deal with things you would rather not have to or don’t feel you have the emotional strength to. It really did help and literally within minutes of taking it, and  without over thinking I found myself on the phone to the vet tearfully discussing our options – actually there weren’t any I just needed to be 100% sure I was making the decision for Meg’s needs and not prolonging her suffering for my own needs.

    We arranged a time for that evening and we proceeded to spend our last day together trying to make the most of it. We went for a short walk and had lots of interaction while trying to keep everything as “normal” as we possibly could. I used the “Gentle Warrior” essence several times over the space of the morning.

    Around lunch time I began using some “Leaf litter” essence on Meg, gently rubbing it over her ears which seemed to be where she was comfortable with it. I also began taking some of it myself. (This essence from Jan Stewart’s essence range helps us with transitional phases and letting go)

    I used a room spray with essential oils and essences that I often used and felt it was helping to keep the energy clear and focussed with a sense of familiarity. It was obviously a very emotionally charged day but we managed to keep things fairly calm and allowed Meg to do what she felt , sleep was becoming increasingly deep and longer as the day went on.

    As the dreaded time was approaching I took both “Gentle Warrior” and “Leaf Litter” again – also offering the latter to Meg, and sprayed the room liberally with our familiar spray. She was comfortable and as long as I was near her she was settled.

    Soon after when the familiar face of the vet arrived I felt really able to be fully there for Meg and to put my own emotional turmoil on the back burner.

    So on the 26th September,  on  her favourite blanky with her favourite treats and a huge cuddle and lots of reassuring words the final act of kindness for her was performed and feeling the love all around her she slipped gently from this world.

    It was a beautiful and fitting farewell to such a beautiful being and “Gentle Warrior” Essence helped me to keep it all together when I really had to. I was extremely grateful for having been able to do this for her.

    I also carried through with the process of releasing my essences and spoke with several people I had arranged to over the coming days. I took Gentle Warrior when I felt the need and I walked through this period of time with a commitment to divine timing and in honour of my beautiful girl.

    I really began to understand the power of this gentle essence and see how it could be helpful in so many situations.

    It had originally came through to help support parents of special needs children who were having a hard time and having to stand up for their children against the system. However any situation that requires your focus and attention when you feel emotionally exhausted and would rather run a mile could be faced with conviction with this gentle ally.

    If you would like to find out how this essence could support you please drop me a message via the contact form.

    In Memory of Meg

    2/10/2006 ~ 26/9/18

  • A Healing Journey

    I’ve been working on some deep stuff the last few weeks and wanted to share, working as usual with various essences and  I had begun to write up a report on a recent plant journey with Nettle that I had been part of.

    This journey  had really highlighted how my body had held old emotional trauma that had become pain in the physical.  I had a real urge to share this as it felt a significant journey. However no matter what I tried the writing felt a bit clunky and not quite right so I saved the document I had and went to bed to ponder on it over night. I wondered what else needed to be added or if it was in fact something that didn’t need to be shared?

    To understand this next part of the journey I will share briefly my Nettle journey.

    As a group we had walked into the forest to meet Nettle and communicated with  the plant by drawing the image we saw and paying attention to what we heard and felt. We regrouped and shared our intentions for our journey with Nettle. I chose to let go of fear, to remove anything that was holding me back and for insights into my own personal journey.

    We then danced blind fold, feeling the music and how our bodies responded to it. Mine responded like a petulant teenager. An old Sciatica problem was very apparent and my left hip area just didn’t want to move. The more I tried to persuade it the tighter it got and the pain increased. Feeling into the teenager vibe I was suddenly drawn back to a painful time in my life at school, where I was a loner and  didn’t really fit in. At that time I had wished to be completely invisible to others so that I didn’t feel their judgemental looks. Looking at this now – I have a need to be visible with many areas of work now and this being invisible was still blocking me in some way. Good – Nettle was getting down into the depths of where I needed to go to remove this outdated mind set.

    We then drank a nettle brew and entered into a shamanic journey for further insights. I felt drawn to lying on my left side which was quite painful and seemed a bit odd but I ran with it. I communicated further with that lonely teenage within me and made amends with her – lying on my side had been like a way of showing I was willing to protect the hurt , or at least the part of me that was hurting.  I felt incredibly tired after the journey and went home to sleep soundly.

    When I woke in the morning there was no tightness like there usually was in my hip. I felt like something had been removed from that area and that was related to this old state of emotional disharmony.  The pain has so far not returned and I feel taller and less restricted in my hip area.

    This has continued for around ten days now. I was amazed by the results and decided to document it in detail.

    So back to the beginning of the story,

    I spent an unsettled night and on top of that the dog was up several times in the night resulting in very little sleep. I struggled to get up and as I was running late for work.  I decided to take the short route rather than my usual,  preferred more scenic walk. I immediately felt a little apprehensive and felt my left hip area tighten in response.

    On brief investigating it made sense in conjunction with the work I had done with Nettle as this walk would entail me walking part of the very same way that I had done to school. I didn’t have much choice as I would add too much time on to the journey if I went the usual route.

    Rushing along feeling the “normal” twinges and finding the muscles of my legs literally objecting by responding with twinges of pain.  I decided to approach the subject consciously as I walked down through the masses of Impatiens flowers and Willow trees over the old familiar green bridge towards my destination and the site of my old school. I was greeted at the far side of the bridge by a patch of tall Nettle. I knew that I was walking through a portal of change.

    I was surprised to note just how many times I would have been immersed in all this plant energy in some form all those years ago. The plants and trees I was now passing would also have been younger and their energy of a different vibration. A familiarity was swelling up and I was grateful to be able to now acknowledge the nature of these plants that I had encountered without any form of real connection before.

    Legs tiring slightly and familiar psoas muscle twinges kick in stronger and more persistent but I kept going onwards up that hill I had rushed up so many other mornings.

    The school has been knocked down and rebuilt and is now a bright, modern primary school. As I paused I felt that old part of me go off and climb the stairs however rather than being met with fear and darkness of the old energy there was a bright vibrant space. I felt in this new space a lightness and an excitement. I saw it filled with all the people who are near and dear to me, my family and friends and all the wonderfully supportive people that I am lucky to have in my life.

    The old teenage part of me stayed there socialising as the physical me marched up the next part of the hill at the front of the school, past the familiar beech hedges to the other entrance. I gently called on the teen me and she was so busy greeting and chatting with others I had to call her again.

    As she reintegrated with me I could really feel the energy wind its way through my central column and take its rightful place.

    On down the hill towards work, past the Castle that has featured quite a lot for me over the last few years – I suddenly remembered my fascination with it during my school photography club days. I carried on down the road under the shelter of the row of Red and White Chestnut trees. ….  Heavy with their conkers now, the identifying flowers long gone. However their energy cleansing and clearing all the old outdated mind set as I counted and acknowledged all 11 of them. I had consciously connected with the larger at either end of the row and felt that sense of familiarity rise, how many times in years gone by had I walked under this very same row of trees?

    I felt cleansed and fresh as I crossed the road heading for work now. It felt like a layer of scaffolding that had surrounded me just fell away. The pain melted and as I walked on 3 tall Nettle popping through the hedge at eye level caught my vision. Like the Nettle I too felt tall and strong. What a reminder of just who was the catalyst for this inner journey.

    I know that I have now completed what I had to do as per my intentions of working with Nettle and that I have healed at a whole different level than before. Is my healing journey over? Heck no I have merely released one of the layers that was holding me back and causing me physical problems. I will no doubt be guided back to some other area in due time.

    This is why I love my work so much, working with the nature realm brings possibilities to shift our whole perspective that can literally be life changing. With Every old layer of buried emotional discomfort that we can remove we allow ourselves to flow forward without being caught in the outdated and unhelpful default patterns that we can find ourselves stuck in.

    When you are ready to do the work it is amazing what can be achieved!

  • Managing our issues with Grace & Ease

    There is a fluidity to the energies at the moment and we are learning to be masters the new waters that surround us. We have opportunities to choose and with our choice comes the manifestation of how exactly we will roll with the necessary changes.

    If we don’t approach our issues with inquisitiveness and a willingness to change we can get caught up in the net of illusion that we create for ourselves.

    When we struggle we drop below the surface and feel dragged down in the fluid depths – hopeless and despairing of a way out, and yet if we focus and calm ourselves we begin to notice that we are still breathing and can make efforts to resurface.

    Rather than huge fighting efforts it is a  gentle letting go and not struggling, surrendering to the flow but focussing on a positive outcome. Its almost an inner knowing that our initial thoughts are testing us in some way and that what we had initially perceived as reality – was a projection of the old trying to reclaim us and pull as back into a state of panic and fear. It can be strange and a little fun to watch this play out as its almost like a comedy where you are playing both roles and know can see through the charade.

    This is NOT who we are, and we should question everything especially when we feel the “here we go again” type energy surface. Question if it is relevant to your situation, is it a default response to old programming that is no longer required

    Grace and ease is a key word and no matter what life throws at us, if we are aware, discerning and honest with ourselves then we can glide on through any hiccups effortlessly. My essence of choice to help me navigate these times is ” Grace & Ease” made from a stunning White and magenta Phalaenopsis Orchid.

    We are being given the opportunity to master our inner critic and lets face it, we would do far better without a nagging nelly voice that tries to talk us out of being our wonderful, powerful self. Bring humour and lightness to the table and watch as you unravel the ties of the old that still try to bind us.

    Wishing you a smooth and steady journey back to owning your power!